Is it really supposed to be this heart-breakingly difficult? Being a parent? I really don't have a clue what I am doing most of the time and the older they get the harder it gets. Like I am moving through a moment of upheaval and every step of the way I can hear myself saying "no. that is the wrong way" and yet I keep moving in the wrong direction because I know of no other direction.

hope

a picture of my garden a couple years ago. Those dahlias were almost 6 feet tall with blooms a foot wide...absolutely scrumptious. I am missing my yard, my veggies and my flowers so much. Two years without a vegetable garden is far too long. Unfortunately the whole back 40 has to be completely rearranged and reconfigured and I don't have long to do so before I will end up missing out on yet another year.

too bad we need to sleep...

for the sake of partaking

well now, lets see if any of my friends find this ;)


1. The first 3 people to post to this blog will get a gift from me.
2. It will be handmade and hopefully something you will like, no guarantees.
3. You must in turn make something for me :)
4. And you must post this to your blog.
5. And about those deadlines??? yeah, you know me!
6.OH! and just incase you find this and don't know me... it won't count...sorry!